| sunshine is beautiful |
[Mar. 29th, 2005|10:45 pm] |
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So i talked to drew today....at like 3:15 and it totally brought a smile to my face...:) i told him that i missed him and stuff and he said it back yea yea...lol um..he also mentioned his (ex)wife. he said that she really wants to talk to him about something...i told him that she prolly wants to get back with him...and he said there was no way that would happen (she cheated on him with like a lot of guys when he went in). I told that i hope it never happens, cuz then i would be sad. but other than that we had a good conversation. i just hope that he doesnt break up with me anytime soon at all, cuz i really care about him :)
all in all i think this week is going by decently fast. tomorrow is hump day which means half the week is over and then its all downhill from there. im going to pick up drew on saturday at like 930 in the morning with his mom and his nephew gareth. im excited...god i love the weekends when i spend time with him....he said its gonna be a good weekend for us...so yay!!!
well thats all for now, im gonna go do some longly put off homework...peace out homie's! |
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| do u ever have the feeling that u just want it to be over already? |
[Mar. 29th, 2005|12:00 am] |
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| | goin' crazy--natalie | ] |
yea its been a while since i wrote in here, but there's a lot of stuff goin on rite now...well lets get first things first...if you dont want to hear me ramble about my life then dont read this....
~so 2 weeks ago...i met my friend gareth's uncle who is 24 and is residing in a prison center (if you want details...just ask) in peoria, IL. He comes home every weekend..which is good. We started seeing eachother exclusively and i didnt think it was going to be a big deal or anything and everything is going really good, no problems. just the fact that i miss him already and its weird, cuz like i really MISS him and we've hardly been together for like 2 weeks...its just that whenever im with him...im so happy and my life doesnt seem so bad, but the second i leave him, reality hits me.
~so yesterday was easter...and i have to admit...it was the worst easter a person could ever have. No family dinner...nothing...not even a lame easter basket. the first easter without my great grandma and it sucked. i cried for about 2 hours about everything and i thought i felt better but i still feel like shit and feel that my life is going no where and im not making any progress in my life at all. My dad is still on my ass about church and blah blah...i just wish for once my dad would except me for who i am and how i live...even if its not the way he wants me to. im trying my hardest to try and please everyone in family, and it is never enough for my dad....EVER. whatever i do, whereever i go, he's got something to say about it, always putting me down, never believing in me...its gotten so bad that i haven't been to school in a week, cuz i just dont feel like i need to go anymore...no one believes in me so why not just prove all of them rite for a chance and just fuck everything. im so sick of trying to do everything for everyone and not having anytime for myself or worry about what i have to do. its insane.
~work. yea i just started this new job 3 weeks ago, already got promoted, got a dollar increase...good things. Bad things...they have me working my ass off there, 6-7 days a week, 7-9 hr shifts. plus going to school full time...if i didnt know any better i would say they are taking advantage of me. i didnt ask to be promoted, i should have never taken that promotion. i dont have time for anything anymore cuz im always fucken working. its retarded, so today i told my manager that im not working anymore sundays...and he was like "well when i hired u i told u that u had to work weekends, and sundays is part of the weekend." im already working fucken all week! and they cant even cut me a break and just fucken give me sundays off. bullshit. i cant keep up with my school work, my grades are falling b/c of it, im gonna have to go find another job, otherwise they are going to have to deal with me having sundays off. no ifs, ands or buts about it. end of discussion.
~im just sick of everything...i just wish that for one whole week that i could just relax...no school, no work, no problems, and just do what i gotta do. my bills are on all due at the same time, and guess what...i cant even fucken pay them, im trying soooo hard to, working my ass off, and no one seems to notice that I AM TRYING. i just need to go away for a while, go on vacation by myself...get away from everything...alone, maybe ill never come back. |
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| early morning phone calls suck... |
[Dec. 8th, 2004|02:38 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | stupid music | ] |
Everytime things seem to be going well...they do a drastic turn in a matter of 2 seconds. I hate this school, I hate the RD, and I hate my RA. I hate early morning phone calls, I hate it when poeple die, and I hate it when it's your family member that dies. The last time I got an early morning phone call, was at 2am and it was regarding my great grandma who passed away two days later. I got another one of those phone calls this morning...regarding my grandpa Ray. There's nothing worse than a death in the family. Especially one like this. This is goin to be a weird, confusing, frustrating funeral. Just because of all the problems that went on in the family. I have finals on friday, monday, and tuesday. If the funeral is this weekend, then I will pay my respects and go back home for the day. Otherwise I hope that it would be next week sometime after tuesday. man o man. |
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| ow ow ow wo its friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Dec. 3rd, 2004|02:15 pm] |
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| |  mischievous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hotel by Cassidy | ] |
finally, this day has come!!!! me and amanda are heading back to my crib for the weekend of a 'lil fun!!! i get to get her drunk and buy a car and see my baby nephew (not really but that's what i consider him) nolan all on saturday!!! im so fuckin excited that i cant even control me excitedness!!!
THIS WEEKEND IS GONNA BE SOME SWEETASSSHITE!!! (thanks lena for the word lol) oh yea and i get to see lena and steph on sunday!!!!!!!!!! how awesome im seeing a whole bunch of people this weekend im so frickin excited....(does the andrea and lena finger thing for excitedness lol) yayayayayay im ready to go home now!!! WENIS! KDFH;DJIAGHUOGFHAFU;IGHA;IFUH |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2004|01:28 pm] |
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| |  haha thats how i feel hahahahh | ] |
yay lean for support of gay marriage!!!!!!!!!!!
cuz bob loves franc!!! |
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| OH AH those summmmmmer niiiiiiiiiiights!!!!! |
[Dec. 2nd, 2004|01:20 pm] |
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What's up guys...im bored, just got outta theatre. only 5 days left of classes!!! how fun is that!! im so excited. tomorrow is friday and i have never been this excited to come home before. im bringing my roommate amanda home with me and im gonna sho her how to party chi-town style lol. or rather, "andrea-style" lol. we are gonna have sooooo much fun!! she is gonna meet the "guy". i hafta bring her to gareth's house on saturday nite sometime. so we are gonna have to take a break from our jager party and go see alex...and cuz i gotta say hi to my boys...arlan and gareth lol. so yea it should be fun, and we go home TOMORROW!!!!! YES! |
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| Ever wonder what it's like to fall in love?? |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|05:15 pm] |
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| |  excited | ] |
I thought it was time for another entry..so here i am. Ok thanksgiving break was awesome..i ended up getting drunk with one of my aunts, and it was sooo much fun. How crazy is that?? I realized that i enjoy spending time with family on holidays and such. It's really important considering how down hill our family is going. I stayed with my cuz BJ and his girlfriend Nichole cuz she's pregnant and her due date was last wednesday. I wanted to stay with her just in case she went into labor...turns out that she didnt go into labor until 2am this morning...and she is still in labor and it is 5:43pm. Thats a long ass labor i tell ya that one. I'm going home on friday and amanda is coming with me...how fun is this gonna be!!!!!!!!!! I found a ride home and my mom is gonna drive me and amanda back on sunday...so everything is set. wow, that didnt take long at all. amazing. lol, ne ways this weekend is gonna be good now...i hope i can find some nice parties to go to...im sure i will, it's not all that hard lol. FINALLY amanda will get to hang out in my world....i hope she's ready |
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| blah blah |
[Nov. 15th, 2004|09:42 am] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
wow. overall, this weekend wasnt bad. me and amanda and angela pranked a lot of people over the weekend...fun times. i got a lot of sleep...which is good cuz i needed it. on saturday i didnt get up until 2 and on sunday i didnt get up until 1, then me and amanda did laundry and we took 4 out of 6 washers and 3 dryers. dam, we had a lot of laundry. haha. today i had my history and philosophy of education presentation. it went well, except i couldnt talk....haha. i kept stumbling over my words and what not. oh well, ill get over it. i looked cute tho..i wore my flower black skirt with my pink frilly see through shirt. it was nice. well im gonna go take a nap and then go to lunch and then to American Civ.....ttyl!
http://community.webshots.com/photo/217482325/217483027gLTXob
the above website is for amanda and angela .....lol |
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| when the rain falls.... |
[Nov. 13th, 2004|04:10 pm] |
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I hate saturdays...especially being here at school. It's so boring and there is nothing to do. I wish I had my car, cuz then it wouldn't be so bad. But honestly, I am sitting here doing absolutely nothing on this glorious saturday afternoon. WTF!?!? I hate this school. I am bored and I wanna go do something. maybe I'll go find someone with a car and we'll go do something fun. Anyways, last nite was fun, we taped our floor RA's whole door, so she couldn't get out lol...haha it was so fun, the whole entire door was taped!!! I gotta pic of it, but I dunno if I can put it on here...just ask me if ya wanna see it. It was fun. I guess she knows that it was us that did it...but I haven't seen her yet today, and she'll something about it lol. Alrite im gonna go find something fun to do now, bye buy! |
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| had to put this quote in here... |
[Nov. 12th, 2004|03:31 pm] |
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| | due to no sleep | ] |
"The theory used to be you marry an older man because they are more mature. The new theory is that men don't mature. So you might as well marry a younger one."
- Anonymous
bubbles86 |
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| psh |
[Nov. 12th, 2004|09:29 am] |
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blah, i hate school, but what else is new. its already friday thank god, but it doesnt feel like one. im so pissed off cuz of my stupid fucking car. why does it have to break now???? dammit, now the weekend is gonna suck being stuck here at stupid olivet. i cant even leave if i wanted to. ahhhh! i hate this school, i hate this town, i hate everything...except my roommate. lol. well i hafta go shower and then my big american civ exam. i hope i do good, but we'll see by the end of today, im nervous. hopefully ill do good. so....yea im gonna go try and get ready for the day and study somemore.... |
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| blah |
[Nov. 11th, 2004|01:38 pm] |
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| |  lazy | ] |
man o man. today is lame but coolio. i should be studying for my american civ exam, but i cant focus, which is not good, cuz i really have to pass that class to transfer....and the exam is tomorrow at 12. dammit! i think im gonna study then take a nap. sounds good to me. today i only had one class, it was at 8 this morning, so now im done and I NEED TO FUCKIN STUDY! dammit, andrea go study! ok im gonna go study..bye bye |
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| blah |
[Nov. 10th, 2004|10:30 am] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | none | ] |
I feel like shite....stupid sickness. I hate being sick soo much. Thanks BJ for giving me your sickness. Anyways, on the flip side, school still sux, but luckily I only gots 35 days left here in this stupid so called "university". This is not college life I tell ya, sitting in your dorm room, and in bed by 10:30. That's sad, very very sad. I'm all registered for AU, so I'm very excited. the only bad part about leaving, is my roommate...we have grown close. i will miss her very much. me and amanda, man o man, i tell ya, our talks....never forget 'em. Since I have broken her shell, and made her more....."human" in my sense, lol, I told her that she needs to experience some true partying. So when i get into my new apartment, i'm throwing her the hugest party ever, and she is going to get trashed, friday nite, saturday nite, and sunday will be her "sobering up" day. haha it should be fun. everyone is invited. well, today is alrite, i have to work again, i hate it. oh yea, my fucking car is sooo gay now, the stupid thing completely and utterly DIED. i have to see if i can jump it and get it to the gas station cuz there is absolutely ZERO gas in it. o well. life's a bitch, then ya die. what else is new, nothing can ever go rite ne ways. alrite, im hungry so im gonna go get ready to get some lunch..mmmmm.....food! |
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| omg!!!!!! |
[Nov. 8th, 2004|03:34 pm] |
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wow, it has been such a long fricken time...holy cow. ok, yea so since the last time i wrote in here, so much shit has happened. ok well my grandma ended up passing away in march and that was EXTREMELY hard to deal with, but eveything is good now. me and my dad are no longer talking at all. i ended up getting stuck at this stupid christian university.....and it sux, except for my roommate, she's the coolest . im transfering to aurora university after this semester is over, so everything is gonna turn out for the good. um...me and colleen are not friends anymore, although i do kinda miss hangin out with her, only cuz we knew how to party together lol. other than that, everything is pretty cool. I lost like 25 pounds since i got to school, so im slimming up. I am gonna be getting my own apartment when i get outta this hell hole school, and start my own life....its kinda scary, but i cant wait. im already half way done with my freshman year of college, and im growing up so fast, i cant even believe it. everyone is growing up. everyone is growing apart too. well i guess this is just a way to kno who your tru friends really are, and it ends up not to many of them stick around. the ones u thought would, are no where to be found. o well, im sick of all the high school shit ne ways lol. alrite im gonna get outta here now...later. |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2004|07:35 am] |
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| | NO MORE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!! | ] |
If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, Post this same exact sentence in your Journal. |
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| yeah |
[May. 18th, 2004|09:54 am] |
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